My Reflections on 2025 - the lessons, the darkness, the light.

The year that fully brought me back to myself.

The one who was staring directly into my eyes.
The one who was begging me to finally face my shadows.
The pieces of myself that I shoved in rooms so long ago, my brain forced me to forget them.
That shadowy girl looked at me with so much pain in her eyes and I finally reached a point where I couldn’t leave her there like that any longer.

Will you listen to how your soul is calling you to live?

Or will you choose to ignore it for a little while longer?

Until, one day, it screams instead of whispers.

And the choice is no longer yours to make.

The gift of someone being internally programmed to inherently know how you need to be seen.

The gift of someone simply seeing you - as you are.

It’s everything.

But you’re also not running.
You’re standing; feet firmly planted in your truth.
And you’re staying exactly where you are - as you.
In your fierce, fucking power that no one can take from you.

It is with this realization that I see - I was not misunderstood.
I was misaligned.
The values I hold will only ever be fully understood by me (and by those who hold similar or identical values to mine.)
If I continue to seek acceptance from those who are desiring a world of stability and security, I will always feel misunderstood and will never fully receive their acceptance.
Just as they cannot live in my values, I also cannot live in theirs.